Playing: The Last of Us
So, for weeks now, I have been stuck in bed.
Started as back pain, but now other regions hurt as well.
I am stuck contemplating life and am really doubting myself, so I warn you all that this is a rant.
So, I did go to the doctor, my little crowded and overworked clinic I get to go to because I can't afford insurance. After having multiple labs come back negative for a UTI, having a lot of blood, having severe back pain and sudden weakness, they decided to finally refer me to a specialist. However, I did not like what my doctor said. "If this lab comes back negative, I will need to send you to our specialist since I cannot figure out what is going on. We want to make sure that you don't have bladder cancer or kidney cancer since your signs do match up to those with your pain and excessive blood and weakness, and not to smaller deseases such as a UTI or Stones." OK, great. Left the dock near empty-handed, save for my instructions to go to the new doctor. I have to obtain six consecutive pay stubs as proof of employment. Easier said than done. The lady in charge of corporate at my work never answers her phone or calls back. (note that I am freaking out due to this being a rather serious issue.) I've called several times the last few days with no avail, so my next best bet is to wait three more weeks to get the rest of my paychecks as normal.
Once I get those, I then have to go back to my clinic to make an appointment with the specialist all the way on the other side of the city. This would not be a problem, except for the fact that I cant drive. My loving family sure wont take me since its so far, and that I am already pissing them off by being bedridden. Mom is quitting her job and is expecting me to fork over my cash to help support them. I am sorry, but one day, I am going to get married and have kids. I sure as hell not going to give you my pennies so you can sit in front of the tv and waste away with smokes and booze. That money is being invested as it is. (also, you know I haven't been paid in several weeks, right? What money?)
I have been bedridden for weeks, doctor said it might be cancer, and my family wont help and expects me to pay them when I only earn about $80 a week.