So, updates on life, My pain decided to subside AFTER I left my job. :/ At least until now. My left kidney is feeling pretty tender.
I am waiting for a call back on another job. This new one should be a lot easier and forgiving on my back injury. I will be making an appointment for the doctor next week to look into the spinal fracture. My doc is bewildered that I have two different issues, and that its not BSed. My hospital charts show both the kidney problems and the spinal fracture on the same slide from the CT scan.
If my pain starts to get bad, I will need to get more painkillers so I can actually get up and do something. I haven't been able to draw anything in weeks.
I did get to see my boyfriend recently. He came in town a few weeks ago to spend some time with me. It's kinda nice knowing that he is willing to make the 300 mile drive just to make sure that I am OK. I am thinking about heading over there to celebrate my birthday. Seems most of my friends are in STL anyway. Most of my KC friends turned their backs on me, but oh well.
My mom wants me to go to Worlds of Fun tomorrow. I would go if I could get my niece to go, but her mom wont let her come. Going by myself is a bad idea. More pain will trigger, I will complain, and probably just sit on a bench the entire time. If my niece or a friend came along, I would still have the willpower to go. I know my dad will complain if I don't go, saying that I wasted their money. (my mom bought the tickets, not me.)
All in all, i am actually severely depressed. I have been yelled at every night again because my parents cant yell at my brother. He keeps stealing money, booze and medications. Particularly my medications, hence the depression. One of these days, I am going to snap, and its going to be his fault. Maybe that needs to happen to set him straight. Goddammit, he acting just like my birth-mother... Stealing their family's medication, making them suffer until they cant take it anymore. Then she died of an overdose.
I am tired of this always happening...
R, I'm in pain, I am depressed, I want out.